But I didn't even have any green beer!

So this second part of spring break is probably the worst ever. I've never been this sick in my life and I don't know why. I really hope I can keep food down. This is so not fun. I miss Marie.

Happy St. Patty's Day to everyone else though.

F'n'Amazing! (and the F stands for Fellowship)

So I finally got a hold of the ResNet people, and they apologized for being so unprofessional, something I referred to them as in my angry voicemail. But my ethernet cable was bad AND the port wasn't working. And right before the guy left he spewed some B.S. about my connection possibly being discontinued because of having LimeWire on my computer, which I never use on campus. Oh well, I may have a landline working as early as tomorrow, but as unreliable as this organization is, I wouldn't count on it. Luckily, my wireless connection is strong again, so hopefully it won't be a big deal.

Had our Hupomone fellowship night at (drumroll please...) CiCi's Pizza! Woot-woot! But of course it was super-awesome, but sometimes I feel like I'm always the only one with a Y chromosome, but it still rocks.

I think my journalism midterm went well, but that story was a little difficult because the topic was stupid (middle school soccer team crashes bus to avoid a deer, no one hurt), so we'll see.

I wonder if the guys on my wing realize how disgusting they are. Holy cow, you should've seen how terrible the bathrooms got when no one cleaned them for three days. Even today, just about 12 hours after it was last cleaned, it's already awful. Geez, people. Do you treat your host's bathroom like this? Ugh.

I'm watching The Daily Show right now, and I was just reminded how much I love it because Rob Riggle had a segment about all these people protesting a Marine recruitment station in Berkeley, California.

Code Pink lady: "We're all about free speech."
Rob Riggle: "If only there was an organization sworn to uphold that freedom..."

That's what I love about them. They get both sides. Keep up the good work.

That's all for now.

Good night, and good luck.

Don't look back in anger

So it's only been a few hours since Marie left, and I'm already angry. Not at her, or anything that happened this weekend, mind you. It's the stupid internet. Well, the connection really. See, I'm not supposed to be able to get wireless in my room, yet I have been all year long. Well, now it's stopped working so I've called and called and submitted work orders for the land-line connection and haven't heard from anyone. Their business hours, according to their voicemail, are 8am-6pm Monday-Friday. Well, guess what? I called today at 10am only to get their voicemail AGAIN! So I walked all the way to their office at the College Inn and NO ONE IS IN THE FREAKING OFFICE and there's no explanation as to why. It's just very frustrating when people aren't helpful, especially those who have been hired to help. I just want this problem resolved so I don't have to keep walking across campus to get access and then walk back to my room with my laptop open just so I can keep the connection going. They have no idea how aggravating they're being. Oy.

/END RANT

I guess I just wasn't made for these times

So I don't know why I'm like this lately.

But it's just I get into these funks when things don't go according to plan.

When people cancel things I'm looking forward to, I feel like they're bailing on me.
When I'm not having a good time at something, I feel like it's my fault.
When I don't have my own vehicle, I feel trapped.
When Marie's not here, I feel lost.
When I'm bored, I feel lazy and prone to do something stupid.

And when I complain about this stuff, I feel like a baby.

So I'm open to suggestions: what should I do? What can I do?

The battle rages on

So Barack Obama did not win Texas, but he didn't lose by much. The Clintons are notorious for their low tactics and win-at-all-costs mentality. So here's what I think this all means now:

-Obama's still leading in pledged delagates, and it's nearly impossible for Hillary to overtake him.
-Obama's still going to take the high road and not resort to negative campaigning, even though Hillary's campaign gets more aggressive.
-Obama's still going to raise more money than Hillary, and won't take any money from lobbyists or PACs.
-Obama's still in this race, but so is Hillary. This baby's going all the way to the convention in August.

Don't give up, Obamaniacs and Barackstars!

Obama represents change we can STILL believe in!

It's just emotions taking me over

So yesterday I cried and I have no idea why.

Sob Session #1: OK, so I didn't cry that much, but I did tear up during the sermon, which I never do. It was Right-to-Life Sunday and Bro. Gary shared a story about a girl in the church who got pregnant and her parents encouraged her to get an abortion and he pleaded with them to let the baby live and they kept the baby and he graduated from high school last year.

Sob Session #2: I got the parentals to leave a little early so I could go see Marie off but I called her and she had already left and there was no way for her to let me know ahead of time because her text messages wouldn't activate.

Sob Session #3: After I got in a fight with Mallory over using her car for Spring Break. It's just a frustrating situation because hers is the only car I can use because our other vehicles suck and I have to pay her to use it and I got really stressed because if I have to pay for two fill-ups and $10 a day to borrow it, I won't have any money to do anything in Austin once Marie and I get there.

But then I got back to Denton just in time so Bryan was able to pick me up and go to OverFlow, and boy did I need that message. It was one of those messages you here all the time (about how God's blessings are just that: God's, not yours), but the way it was conveyed made it feel fresh and tailor-made for me to hear. I don't need to worry about paying for Austin; it'll be taken care of. I may not get to do everything I WANT to, but the expenses will be taken care of.

I already miss Marie but she'll be here on Saturday and I am so so excited, especially because she gets to stay longer and go to OverFlow with me and meet all my friends.

And super-exciting news: I don't have the dreaded Journalism Lab today, so if I'm studious, I can get another paper or two written, which means less time I have to stress about them this week, which is less time I have to stress about them this weekend.

Home, James

So today was semi-interesting...

Stayed up late last night watching Spike Lee's Bamboozled. It doesn't all work, but it's very thought-provoking (i.e. Would a TV network broadcast a live execution for the sake of ratings?)

WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT


Ate lunch with Lea. Only the second time I've seen her all semester, which is pretty ridiculous considering we ate together all the time last semester, but it was good to catch up with her. We mostly talked movies, which I of course could've discussed for hours.

Went to Spanish. Worthless as always.

Went to work. Did about 2 hours of manual labor, and an hour and a half of sitting around. Works for me, eh?

Got home. Had to go grocery shopping. Ugh.

But later I got to see Marie which was the highlight of my month because it's been that long since I've seen her. I love you so much, baby!

Finally, this was really weird: my parents didn't give me a curfew. I know, huh? I was gonna hang out with Cal after Marie and I exchanged our belated Valentine's gifts, but he couldn't for whatever reason, which was a slight bummer, because I really could've stayed out for awhile. C'est la vie.

Well, that's all for now.

Good night, and good luck.