Don't look back in anger

So it's only been a few hours since Marie left, and I'm already angry. Not at her, or anything that happened this weekend, mind you. It's the stupid internet. Well, the connection really. See, I'm not supposed to be able to get wireless in my room, yet I have been all year long. Well, now it's stopped working so I've called and called and submitted work orders for the land-line connection and haven't heard from anyone. Their business hours, according to their voicemail, are 8am-6pm Monday-Friday. Well, guess what? I called today at 10am only to get their voicemail AGAIN! So I walked all the way to their office at the College Inn and NO ONE IS IN THE FREAKING OFFICE and there's no explanation as to why. It's just very frustrating when people aren't helpful, especially those who have been hired to help. I just want this problem resolved so I don't have to keep walking across campus to get access and then walk back to my room with my laptop open just so I can keep the connection going. They have no idea how aggravating they're being. Oy.

/END RANT

I guess I just wasn't made for these times

So I don't know why I'm like this lately.

But it's just I get into these funks when things don't go according to plan.

When people cancel things I'm looking forward to, I feel like they're bailing on me.
When I'm not having a good time at something, I feel like it's my fault.
When I don't have my own vehicle, I feel trapped.
When Marie's not here, I feel lost.
When I'm bored, I feel lazy and prone to do something stupid.

And when I complain about this stuff, I feel like a baby.

So I'm open to suggestions: what should I do? What can I do?

The battle rages on

So Barack Obama did not win Texas, but he didn't lose by much. The Clintons are notorious for their low tactics and win-at-all-costs mentality. So here's what I think this all means now:

-Obama's still leading in pledged delagates, and it's nearly impossible for Hillary to overtake him.
-Obama's still going to take the high road and not resort to negative campaigning, even though Hillary's campaign gets more aggressive.
-Obama's still going to raise more money than Hillary, and won't take any money from lobbyists or PACs.
-Obama's still in this race, but so is Hillary. This baby's going all the way to the convention in August.

Don't give up, Obamaniacs and Barackstars!

Obama represents change we can STILL believe in!

It's just emotions taking me over

So yesterday I cried and I have no idea why.

Sob Session #1: OK, so I didn't cry that much, but I did tear up during the sermon, which I never do. It was Right-to-Life Sunday and Bro. Gary shared a story about a girl in the church who got pregnant and her parents encouraged her to get an abortion and he pleaded with them to let the baby live and they kept the baby and he graduated from high school last year.

Sob Session #2: I got the parentals to leave a little early so I could go see Marie off but I called her and she had already left and there was no way for her to let me know ahead of time because her text messages wouldn't activate.

Sob Session #3: After I got in a fight with Mallory over using her car for Spring Break. It's just a frustrating situation because hers is the only car I can use because our other vehicles suck and I have to pay her to use it and I got really stressed because if I have to pay for two fill-ups and $10 a day to borrow it, I won't have any money to do anything in Austin once Marie and I get there.

But then I got back to Denton just in time so Bryan was able to pick me up and go to OverFlow, and boy did I need that message. It was one of those messages you here all the time (about how God's blessings are just that: God's, not yours), but the way it was conveyed made it feel fresh and tailor-made for me to hear. I don't need to worry about paying for Austin; it'll be taken care of. I may not get to do everything I WANT to, but the expenses will be taken care of.

I already miss Marie but she'll be here on Saturday and I am so so excited, especially because she gets to stay longer and go to OverFlow with me and meet all my friends.

And super-exciting news: I don't have the dreaded Journalism Lab today, so if I'm studious, I can get another paper or two written, which means less time I have to stress about them this week, which is less time I have to stress about them this weekend.

Home, James

So today was semi-interesting...

Stayed up late last night watching Spike Lee's Bamboozled. It doesn't all work, but it's very thought-provoking (i.e. Would a TV network broadcast a live execution for the sake of ratings?)

WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT


Ate lunch with Lea. Only the second time I've seen her all semester, which is pretty ridiculous considering we ate together all the time last semester, but it was good to catch up with her. We mostly talked movies, which I of course could've discussed for hours.

Went to Spanish. Worthless as always.

Went to work. Did about 2 hours of manual labor, and an hour and a half of sitting around. Works for me, eh?

Got home. Had to go grocery shopping. Ugh.

But later I got to see Marie which was the highlight of my month because it's been that long since I've seen her. I love you so much, baby!

Finally, this was really weird: my parents didn't give me a curfew. I know, huh? I was gonna hang out with Cal after Marie and I exchanged our belated Valentine's gifts, but he couldn't for whatever reason, which was a slight bummer, because I really could've stayed out for awhile. C'est la vie.

Well, that's all for now.

Good night, and good luck.

Rantastic!

Strap yourself in and hold on...

It's...

a SupeRant!

-I hate that I can't stop procrastinating.
-I hate that this week is going to be hell at work.
-I hate that I don't have my own car.
-I hate that I won't get to see Marie until Friday (or maybe not even until Saturday).
-I hate that I've got absolutely nothing to cover for this major story for Journalism, and even if I did, I really don't know how to go about covering it.
-I hate that I never have enough money.
-I hate that I have no idea what I'm going to do when I get back from Africa (assuming I still go).
-I hate that I have to write so many papers soon.
-I HATE being sick.

-I love Marie so much.
-I love my friends from OverFlow.
-I love Queen. Seriously, I don't know if there's ever been a better rock band.
-I love my iPod.
-I love the way Donald Miller writes.
-I love going to /Film and reading all the latest movie news.
-I love leading Hupomone.
-I love that Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová won the Oscar for Best Song.


So basically, to quote Ellen DeGeneres, "My life is perfect, even when it's not."

Thanks to everyone who makes my life bearable. Really, you have no idea how much you mean to me.

This one goes out to the one I love

So it's been awhile since I've updated. I know you're all just DYING to hear what's going on in my life. Ha!

But yeah, things are going quite well. I'm hoping that with a little more effort, I can keep my GPA the same for this semester. It'll take some more work on my part, but I hope I can stay committed.

I finished applying for scholarships today. Some of it was a big waste of time because even my "recommended" scholarships including criteria like "attending the College of Business Administration," but hopefully I'll get a lot more money than I did this year. I really want Mallory to focus on applying, because I really want us both to take more of the burden off our grandparents and parents.

We didn't have Journalism lab today (praise the Lord), but we still had a stupid assignment. Man, I really hope my idea for covering a speech or meeting goes over well. I really don't want to do this project, but hopefully I'll be able to cover something I want.

Going back to this weekend: Friday night was a blast. It was just one of those great nights where you don't really know what's going to happen, but it all just turns out great. Seriously, I could not have a better group of friends here. You guys are amazing.

Saturday was semi-important. The whole family went and voted in the primaries. I felt so independent, going against the grain and voting Democrat. I didn't really mean to vote against Kay Bailey Hutchison, but she'll probably be re-elected anyways.

It was also great to hear missionary Jeremy Pittman speak on Sunday. He's a personal hero of mine, especially after hearing what happened to him last year. Afterwards, I stayed chatting with Derek as usual, but this time we missed the ENTIRE FREAKING SERVICE because we were busy yammering away, but what a great time. We ran the whole gamut, from politics to movies to religion, with the Craziest Man Alive (I'm using this apt nickname because I don't wish to use the guy's real name, and I also don't know his name for sure; but rest assured, he's insane) interjecting his opinions about all of these things.

Sunday night's Oscar telecast, while the lowest-rated in history, was probably the best ceremony ever. Really, Jon Stewart was a class act and there were some real surprises. I got all but two of the major nominees correct.

Boy, do I miss Marie. Luckily, I'll get to see her either Friday or Saturday so it's very soon. And I'll get to see her the weekend after that, and then the following Thursday we're leaving for Austin!!! It sounds like some other people may be tagging along (just for the trip down there), but I'm ok with it if she is! I'm so excited, you have no idea.

Tonight's Bible study was really interesting. Lots of heated (never out-of-control) discussion about if a person is habitually sinning without remorse, is he really a Christian? It's a tough topic to tackle, but hopefully I'll be able to continue to give biblical insight in the coming weeks.

Well, that's all for now.

Good night, and good luck.